So yes, I need to learn some patience, again. I have just finished reading the book of Job and learned quite a few things. First that stuff just happens. It affects us all. We need to look to our Lord in the midst of our trials and he will deliver us. Just because bad things happen doesn't necessarily mean we have done something wrong. We just get caught in bad stuff, it's how you handle it that matters. As God is speaking and questioning Job I asked God to speak to me. And that he did. After reading all that I answered with a very small "no." Let God be God. He knows what happens before what happens happens. I did like something I read in this book and will post it here for all you horse lovers out there.
Have you given the horse strength?
Have you clothed his neck with thunder?
Can you frighten him like a locust?
His majestic snorting strikes terror.
He paws in the valley, and rejoices in his strength;
He gallops into the clash of arms.
He mocks at fear, and is not frightened;
Nor does he turn back from the sword.
The quiver rattles against him,
The glittering spear and javelin.
He devours the distance with fierceness and rage;
Nor does he come to a halt because the trumpet has sounded.
At the blast of the trumpet he says, 'Aha!'
He smells the battle from afar,
The thunder of captains and shouting.